Saturday, March 05, 2005
[ ... 20 and still stubborn ^-^]Ah, happy hills! ah, pleasing shade!Ah, fields beloved in vain! Where once my careless childhood stray'd,A stranger yet to pain!I feel the gales that from ye blow A momentary bliss bestow. -- On a Distant Prospect of Eton College. Stanza 2.
Thomas Gray ---------------------------------------So the day i turn the big two-oh and i'm here thinking, where've i gotten really? still studying, [not that i'm failing or anything, just got home a lottery card in fact]... but heck i realized i'm wasting so much time killing myself with 2 courses (and that's a big ahaha there), and again there's absolutely nothing wrong with that, i've always contemplated suicide... but let's face it, mom's tired, brother's waiting, and i'm a hundred percent certifiably bankrupt... sensing from them, bein a truly huge pain in the neck i am... just got the last fifteen grand sucked out of me just to get it over with..., and on top of that i've absolutely no idea what to do with my life... Now, considering i've had 4 long years to think, no, actually make that 20 years--- still don't have the slightest inkling for ambition? nothing?.. God, where am i heading? thus a swamp i thought would do the job--- cold and desolate, pallid and pointless... but hell, it's my birthday, just one stress-free day, and i'm walking on holy ground...
- Happee Happee
by Schulerin 12:00 AM
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