[ Archetype J-1 ]

The archetype might shift onto prognosis if I could not have the real one. It projects into Fr. Kevin Barrett, Simon Baker, Tom Cavanagh, even Bob Saget.,. MOSTLY Bob Saget… And he’s more than twice my age… Damn that guy… But in the end my mind always reverts back to the origin… the real love… the real fantasy… It never ceases to work for my mind… and my soul…

I didn’t know my mind was capable of such hypocrisy. But it was the most obvious instance that rendered an expressively psychological truth to it. I project the persona in others. I find others that resemble the object and then divert my attention and desire to that one. In my mind I usually go for the unconventional. But I couldn’t explain the emotion that came when I found out that it wasn’t like the archetype. In fact, it’s the exact opposite. I do not know if… did I fear it?... If I did, why did I choose to investigate further? Curiosity perhaps? Finding sources, instances, traces… Late nights, maximizing seconds… I do not know… do I want the archetype to assume the characteristics of the object? Would I want to? Is it because the face of it resembled that of the real image and that internally the object had already matched the truths in my mind?,,, I do not know… I thought I knew… But then, I always make the wrong assumptions…

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by Schulerin 12:26 AM