Sunday, May 23, 2004

[ s i g h s & h a a y s ]

had a good day today... me and my family had finished a bible study session... finished the book of job... so beautiful... yet so guilt-arousing... understanding the discourse between job and his three friends was quite a challenge, both spiritually, and semantically... had a hard time pinning down only one meaning per verse, per word even. so funny!, we were always bickering bout interpretations, arguing with one another bout what the particular verses meant, even went to the point that we jumped out of the context way far out to Genesis,.. it was a riot but it was a good thing that we were able to lay out each of our interpretations... never thought it could spice up a bible study session as much... sticks with you...my brother actually got scared of the 'mediatrix' thingy (doctrine being considered by the Catholic Church of being approved stating that you can't go through God without going through Mary, not anymore Jesus Christ)... well yeah..., to think,... it is actually scary... that's already idolatry considering the woman was only human... definitely not God... it would go contrary to the triune God if they made Mary a Mediator... it IS scary!

*sigh* it's back to DLSU tomorrow, for me at least... *sigh* im so tired of that school,... been three years i had no vacation... three summers in a row was all work and grades... yeesh! spend more time there than at home; slept more in that library than in my own bedroom *lol*... *sigh* if only i can work already,... *sigh* i want to work already... yee, even clerical i'd accept... so long as my mom doesn't leave any big debts after she decides to retire,... i'll be damned if she does... haay! i'd be dreaming right now of an office... in a grand building... maybe Mkti?... maybe in a bank?... maybe... managing director?... hah! you wish, gill! you wish!... i'd have to get a Ph.D. for that or sumthn, (and im tired of studying)... and i'd have to be rich, (but then again, i don't have money)... and i'd have to be attractive with skimpy business outfit (which i simply am not, and simply can't do.)... and i'd have to be sossyand be able to stand hypocrisy and small talk and business hullaballoos (which simply isn't in my culture to do and to believe in.)... and i'd have to be able to stand it... well, so i really have no way of becoming such as in my dream... but funny coz that's my dream... and it's antagonized by my very beliefs and culture, who i am in every which way... so sad, really... kaya, haay! talaga! haay!...

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by Schulerin 7:20 PM

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